please don't leave me!

[P.I.N.K]
-please don't leave me-

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I don't know if I can yell any louder
How many times have I kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
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I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
When my heart is... broken

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Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please.. don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I've never been this nasty
Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it
I promise

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Please don't leave me
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Please don't leave me
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I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please.. don't leave me

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I can't be without
You're my perfect little punching bag
And I need you.. I'm sorry

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Please.. please don't leave me

Baby please don't leave me
No.. don't leave me
Please don't leave me no no no
I always say how I don't need you
But it's gonna come right back to this
Please.. don't leave me
No
No.. don't leave me
Please don't leave me
Oh no no no
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me

emak: angan-angan & realiti

bile bercerita pasal emak..

oshinz byk sangat angan2.

angan2nye..

mao emak senang ati.

mao emak senyum tak henti2.

kononnye bile konvo bulan ogos nnt.. mao mak hadir dan tgk sendiri anaknye naek pentas ambil skrol. angan2nye mao ajak mak bergambar supaya nnt bleh cuci gambar tu saiz yg paling besar sekali. nak gantung kat dinding umah. bukan nak bangge tapi nnt bile mak rindukan anak-dara-yg-sorg-ni-tak-dapat-blek-umah-sbb-sibuk-blaja, blehla mak tgk2 gambar tu.. biarkan emak senyum tak henti2 sambil mengubat rindu di hati.

kononnye bile da habes blaja peringkat master nnt.. mao cepat2 kumpul duit. pastu cepat2 kawen dengan lelaki pilihan hati. bukan anak dara yg sorg ni gedik sangat nak kawen.. tapi sementara emak masih ada. biar emak sempat merasa senang hati tengok anaknye yg sorang ni da ade orang yg jaga..

kononnye bile da keje nnt.. duit gaji mao dihulurkan setiap bulan kepada emak tercinta. tak kiralah berapa asalkan emak pun dapat sama-sama merasa. biar emak tahu anak dara yg sorg ni tak pernah lupekan die walaupun sibuk bekerja.

kononnye bile da berumahtangga nnt.. mao bina umah dekat dengan umah mak. sbb tu cari lelaki tak jauh dari umah. biar senang nak blek kampung sesame. biar senang tak yah nak gado nak duduk dekat ngan family sape.

tapi...

angan-angan akan kekal menjadi angan-angan.

kononnye pun akan selamanya menjadi kononnye..

kerana realiti;

manusia yang hidup pasti akan mati.

dan kerana kitaran hidup manusia mmg begitu..

emak pergi meninggalkan anak dara yg sorang ni..

emak tak akan pernah kembali untuk membiarkan semua angan-angan menjadi kenyataan.

Al-Fatihah..

-s.e.l.a.s.a: 21/07/09-

it is so hard when..

oshinz terase susah bile kena wat pilihan.
bukan kadang-kadang.
bukan jarang-jarang.
setiap kali.
setiap mase.

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