please don't leave me!

video

[P.I.N.K]
-please don't leave me-

da da da da, da da da da
da da da da da da

I don't know if I can yell any louder
How many times have I kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
da da da da da

I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
When my heart is... broken

Da da da-da da
Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please.. don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I've never been this nasty
Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it
I promise

da da da-da da
Please don't leave me
da da da-da da
Please don't leave me
da da da-da da
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please.. don't leave me

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I can't be without
You're my perfect little punching bag
And I need you.. I'm sorry

da da da da, da da da da
da da da da-da da
Please.. please don't leave me

Baby please don't leave me
No.. don't leave me
Please don't leave me no no no
I always say how I don't need you
But it's gonna come right back to this
Please.. don't leave me
No
No.. don't leave me
Please don't leave me
Oh no no no
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
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emak: angan-angan & realiti

bile bercerita pasal emak..
oshinz byk sangat angan2.
angan2nye..
mao emak senang ati.
mao emak senyum tak henti2.

kononnye bile konvo bulan ogos nnt.. mao mak hadir dan tgk sendiri anaknye naek pentas ambil skrol. angan2nye mao ajak mak bergambar supaya nnt bleh cuci gambar tu saiz yg paling besar sekali. nak gantung kat dinding umah. bukan nak bangge tapi nnt bile mak rindukan anak-dara-yg-sorg-ni-tak-dapat-blek-umah-sbb-sibuk-blaja, blehla mak tgk2 gambar tu.. biarkan emak senyum tak henti2 sambil mengubat rindu di hati.

kononnye bile da habes blaja peringkat master nnt.. mao cepat2 kumpul duit. pastu cepat2 kawen dengan lelaki pilihan hati. bukan anak dara yg sorg ni gedik sangat nak kawen.. tapi sementara emak masih ada. biar emak sempat merasa senang hati tengok anaknye yg sorang ni da ade orang yg jaga..

kononnye bile da keje nnt.. duit gaji mao dihulurkan setiap bulan kepada emak tercinta. tak kiralah berapa asalkan emak pun dapat sama-sama merasa. biar emak tahu anak dara yg sorg ni tak pernah lupekan die walaupun sibuk bekerja.

kononnye bile da berumahtangga nnt.. mao bina umah dekat dengan umah mak. sbb tu cari lelaki tak jauh dari umah. biar senang nak blek kampung sesame. biar senang tak yah nak gado nak duduk dekat ngan family sape.

tapi...
angan-angan akan kekal menjadi angan-angan.
kononnye pun akan selamanya menjadi kononnye..

kerana realiti;
manusia yang hidup pasti akan mati.

dan kerana kitaran hidup manusia mmg begitu..
emak pergi meninggalkan anak dara yg sorang ni..
emak tak akan pernah kembali untuk membiarkan semua angan-angan menjadi kenyataan.

Al-Fatihah..

-s.e.l.a.s.a: 21/07/09-
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it is so hard when..

oshinz terase susah bile kena wat pilihan.
bukan kadang-kadang.
bukan jarang-jarang.
setiap kali.
setiap mase.

*hidup ini sebenarnya menduga siapa sebenarnya kita*


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four here and there

dear nisa,
why must my name was there?


FOUR NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU :

they just call me -.a.j.a.-
my close colleagues call me -.c.u.-
bloggers call me -o.s.h.i.n.z.-
some call me -.j.a.j.a.-

FOUR MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE :
my mom's birthday: 25/12
my birthday: 24/12
his birthday: 18/6
declaration date with him: 29/03

FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
editing task for tomorrow
YM-ing with my buddies
listening to music
reading online articles

FOUR WAYS TO BE HAPPY :
travelling
laughing
spend time with friends
think positive

FOUR PEOPLE YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST :
my dad!! T____T
old school friends of mine
my cousin
hide & seek + galah panjang gang

FOUR GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE :
happily ever after with the person that i love
peaceful life
a house and a car
can i have my own mall?

FOUR OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES :
watching movies
surfing
riding
travelling

FOUR PLACES OR COUNTRY YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION :
mecca & madinah
paris
vanice
islands in malaysia

FOUR FAVOURITE DRINKS :
sky juice
musk-lime ice
orange juice
all fruits juice..

FOUR THINGS ALWAYS FOUND IN YOUR PURSE/WALLET :
money
license
atm card
ic

FOUR FAVOURITE COLORS :
red
purple
chocolate
black & white

TOP FOUR HANGOUTS :
if i'm at:
[bangi]
one utama
mid valley
klcc

[hometown]
depends on the mood

TOP FOUR U LOVE SO MUCH :
family
sweetheart
best friends-should i name it?

TOP FOUR "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU :
mobile phone
laptop
my house
the ring that he gave to me
his mr2
[coz dat car has its own sentimental value]

TOP FIVE WHO YOU WILL TAGGED:
m
i
s
z

d
a
f
f

TOP FOUR REASONS WHY YOU ANSWERED THIS SURVEY :
bcoz i've been tagged n i'm very bored now!
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taking back my love

-c.i.a.r.a-





-e.n.r.i.q.u.e..i.g.l.e.s.i.a.s-
















.
.
.
when they featuring together in..

-TAKING BACK MY LOVE-
video

Red One.. Ciara.. Enrique..

Enrique:
Go ahead
Just leave
Can’t hold you
You’re free
You take all these things
If they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams
Cause you meant the world
So did i deserve to be left and hurt
You think I don’t know you’re out of control
And then I’m finding all of this from my boys
Girl you said I’m cold
You say it ain’t so
You already know I’m not attached to materials
I give it all up
But I’m taking back my love
I’m taking back my love
I’m taking back my love
I’ve given you too much
But I’m taking back my love
I’m taking back my love
My love my love my love my love..

Ciara:
What did I do to give us the cue
I’m just confused as I stand here and look at you
From head to feet
All it’s from me
Go head
Keep your keys
That’s not what I need from you
You think that you know
[Enrique: I do]
You’ve made yourself cold
[Enrique: Oh yeah]
How could you believe them over me
I’m your girl
You’re out of control
[Enrique: So what?]
How could you let go
[Enrique: Oh yeah]
Don’t you know I’m not attached to materials

I give it all up
But I’m taking back my love
I’m taking back my love
I’m taking back my love
I’ve given you too much
But I’m taking back my love
I’m taking back my love
My love my love my love my love

Enrique:
So all this love I give you take it away
Ciara:
You think material’s the reason I came
Enrique:
If I had nothing what you want me to say
Ciara:
You take your money take it all away

I give it all up
But I’m taking back my love
I’m taking back my love
I’m taking back my love
I’ve given you too much
But I’m taking back my love
I’m taking back my love
My love my love my love my love

i'm willing to listen to this song many times per day.
addicted?
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ape kes?

blog terbiar da jadi perkare biase bile tuan blog dihimpit kesibukan. bile tibe time tak bz takde idea plak nak celoteh. bile lappy takde rase cam nak tulis psl inila nak tulis psl itula.. tapi bile da duduk baik punye gaye depan lappy.. idea tu terbang ntah ke mane. L.E.N.Y.A.P!! dua ari lepas try gak nak wat entry, tapi 7-8 aksara je yg mampu ditaip.. tuptaptuptap.. then delete blek. so arini mood nak update baru ade. at diz moment pun gigih lg menyeru idea..

mari mulekan pembacaan sekarang..

first week kembali ke student's world adalah minggu busy settlekan permohonan untuk stay in college dan minggu mengemas. time ni mmg sgt geram dengan pihak pengurusan. sekejap kate bleh check in bilik on 06/07/09 bile ade bilik kosong or kena mohon dulu on dat day and then tunggu 2-3ari baru leh masuk.. sekejap lg kate after 2 weeks from the earlier date. mmg sgtla chaotic time ni.. sblom tibe registeration day pun masing2 da pening2 lalat cari tempat untuk stay temporarily.

06/07: registeration day.

[before lunch hour]
ari yg tersangat penat bagi oshinz n frens.. first thing kena settle adalah pendaftaran kat PPS. then g college untuk permohonan penginapan. after that, rushing ke PPBL utk ambil borang dftr subjek baru sbb office da nak tutup.

[sementara lunch hour time]
kitorg g tgk bilik yg kitorg akan stay utk 2weeks tu dan angkat brg2 yg dibawa dari kampung yg indah permai.. dari brg yg ringan sampaila ke brg yg berat kami angkat dgn gigih dan penuh kesabaran hingga ke tingkat 4. time tuh rase cam terbakar segala kalori dan badan habes lembik tak bermaya tambah derita bile perut berkonsert dendang lagu syahdu.. sobsobsob. tapi takdela lembik sampai pengsan segala bagai.. ade gak la energy utk menapak ke kedai makan. hihihihi..

[after lunch hour]
pegi blek UKM utk amik password kat PTM. password ni digunakan olh setiap pelajar bile nak masuk kat SMPWEB. SMPWEB tu sgt bergune sbb kat situlah nnt leh register or drop subject, check result exam dan bleh tgk berape juta sen hutang yg blom langsai dengan pihak universiti. g PPBL smule utk penerangan subjek ape yg perlu apply utk first sem. pastu g PK lak anta x-ray.. naseb baekla tiga proses ni tak lame. then blek semula ke bilik tingkat 4 tu utk kemas2 brg. siap kemas sume kami turun lg utk duplicate kunci dan beli makanan utk recharge energy.. aktiviti di luar umah abes sekitar 7.30 pm.

07/07:
arini dapat tau drpd membe yg membe sorg lg da bleh dpt bilik. what?!!!! pergh.. time ni hangin satu badan la. utk dapatkan kunci je da kena byr rm100. nsb baek ade byk lg bilik yg bleh dipilih. so kami pilih bilik double sebelah-menyebelah.. tak kesahla kat tingkat 5 skali pun asalkan senang bleh together2. arini i lepak bilik u.. sok u lepak bilik i. bile da bosan kite lepak luar. kos sms pun bleh dikurangkan. nak cakap benda2 penting just knock the door.. kan senang tu? dan kerana ketidakpuasan terhadap college service, kami sepakat utk ignore je dulu yuran penginapan yg pd kami-"uit.. mahal gilos!!" nnt2la dulu.. tunggu duit masuk dulu baru wat payment.

08/07:
pagi2 da serah kunci kat owner umah. sedih je.. coz baru nak beramah mesra ngan tenants kat situ but unfortunately i have to say gudbye.. actually bilik tu dlm 1 umah. me n frens dok 1 bilik. lg 2 bilik da ade org. so totally dlm 1 umah ade 5 tenants. dan arini mereka kembali berdua semula.. dan oshinz adalah sekali lg dengan gigih mengemas bilik baru di college. adehai.. sepetang menghabiskan mase kemas2. penat woh!

utk sem ni oshinz ade rumate baru. name die farah dan berasal drpd johor. die ni coursemate oshinz mase degree. skrg pun still lg coursemate.. she is a clever girl! ini adalah fakta eh.. sbb die dpt dean's list from part 2-part 6. umo die baru 21thn tapi da wat master. hebat kan? sila kagum ye kawan2..

10/07:
attend klas kul 3-6ptg.. uish.. nak tunggu klas ni abes je da 5-6kali yawning-my bad! mmg majority kls 3jam coz lecture and tutorial combine skali. dan utk batch oshinz mmg ramai foreigners. ade yg dari liberia.. jordan.. iraq.. palestin. org2 middle east. malaysian tak smpai 20 org pun. nak tak nak kena la mix with them that i can call sister, brother, aunty and uncle. ecceeh.. bunyi da mcm satu family la plak. hehehe. if u all want to know, my classes only on three days which are thursday, friday and saturday. dah mcm wat part time study pun ade.. busan plak bile pikir lg 4ari tu tak tau nak watpe. hehe..

arini baru settle apply ptptn. tak taula bleh dpt ke tak. scholarship pun da try apply but till now still dont know the application status. wat master mmg byk pakai duit.. n u have to be independent. takde dah lagi zaman manje2 cam time degree dulu.. daftar je da siap sedia tempat tinggal. da confirm dpt ptptn. every month confirm berduit. kali ni tak tau camne. cube gak apply jd research assistant utk cari duit poket. tapi blom ade lg lecturer yg mao. i'm waiting patiently for it.. pray for me ya!


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hidup ni bukan forever gula..

06/07/09:
UKM tunggu daku!!
i'll be back to further master lak.
kembali semula ke dunia biskut, maggi dan roti..

nothing much to say actually..
cume terfikir;
tak nak menjadi dewasa.

nape ek?
bile dewasa byk benda kena fikir.
bile dewasa byk hati yg perlu dijaga.
bile dewasa semua tindakan kena matang.

kadang-kadang..
bile life da jadi semakin
C.O.M.P.L.I.C..A.T.E.D
rase cam nak bawa diri jauh-jauh je..
:naikmoto:
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